The type of person I am

Wondering what a type of person I am? Well I have been told that I am a unique individual, my views and opinions on life are quite different from most...
There are basic things I like and what I dislike as an individual not that am so principle but I value things worth doing right...

Am Easy going person, affectionate, not hot temper, not jealous unless you give me a reason to be, have a great sense of humor. My favorite food are filipino foods & seafoods, mostly seafoods...

I like fun, I am open minded person, romantic at heart & believed my man should be treated like my king & I love spoiling my loved ones...

My aspiration is to become great in life, take good care of my husband to be & kids as much as I can & then be the best woman I can be to my family...
I am honest & do not play any games, don't have time for that...

I do not like liars or cheaters. I am very sensual & also very affectionate (world-class cuddles). I enjoy pampering, surprising my partner & I also love to be nurtured in return...

Sensuality is important to me, some of my favorite things are the salty taste of lobster simmering in a blurred blanch sauce, the smell of the ocean mixed w/ suntan lotion on a summer day, the cool velvety softness of well-worn cotton sheets on a hot summer night, the gentle touch of my lover, the beauty of a home which has been designed to be inviting & welcoming, the sound of leaves rustling beneath my feet in the Fall...

I like to take a walk with my loved one along the shore of the beach holding hands. I like to wake up in the morning to the beauty of the sky and to see what the day has brought for the future. When am sleeping all i want to do is to think about my family & the man that occupied my heart, I like to dream about my prince charming & share my dreams w/ him, I believe that I cannot change the past but I most definitely can make the future...

My past relationship didn't work out so good because i over trusted him & he betrayed my trust. Now, I am blessed with a second chance to life which has shown me that life is a gift & I must cherish every moment of it good, bad & indifferent. I believe in faith & destiny & have always been in search of something that I'm quite not sure excises

"TRUE LOVE".

"True Love" is boundless & immeasurable & overcomes all forms of adversity. In truth, if it is genuine, it will grow stronger w/ each assault upon its existence.

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One day

One day I will open my eyes
And see things clearly,
I'll see that I was blinded
And that you didn't deserved
A thing that I did for you....

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Do it!

Don't do something for our relationship because I ask; do something for our relationship because you want to do it.
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Sellection

1. No one can ruin your day without YOUR permission.

2. Most people will be about as happy, as they decide to be.

3. Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently.

4. Whatever you are willing to put up with, is exactly what you will have.

5. Success stops when you do.

6. When your ship comes in make sure you are willing to unload it.

7. You will never "have it all together".

8. Life is a journey, not a destination. Enjoy the trip!

9. The biggest lie on the planet: "When I get what I want I will be happy".

10. The best way to escape your problem is to solve it.

11. I've learned that ultimately, 'takers' lose and 'givers' win.

12. Life's precious moments don't have value, unless they are shared.

13. If you don't start, it's certain you won't arrive.

14. We often fear the thing we want the most.

15. He or she who laughs......lasts.

16. Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.

17. Look for opportunities, not guarantees.

18. Life is what's coming, not what was.

19. Success is getting up one more time.

20. Now is the most interesting time of all.

21. When things go wrong, don't go with them.

My Tech Life through my Palm

To have a connection in every aspect of life is crucial nowadays; I remember in the era before text, emails messages and social networking, when physical interaction is the most direct form of communication. “Through Tech & Thin” we are connected 24/7. Messages come and go every second. My #BlackBerry, BBM, Facebook, Twitter, Whatsapp, Emails and all other apps available in my mobile phone that’s Peeping or Pinging a round of a clock. From the least to the most of what’s happening whereabouts of the friends I've known are all stated through that blinking red holster from my mobile phone. When meeting friends; nothing much to share and to talk with then I wondered “why we have to make an effort to meet up?” where it leaves us very little to say and the saddest part we’re still glued to our mobile phones.

The depressing part is this, when I wake up in the morning the first thing I do is check my BlackBerry which lies next to me in my bed, and if the red light doesn’t blink and I don’t have a couple of emails, a number of facebook notifications & likes, a facebook inbox message, seven or eight Whatsapp chats and five BBM chats at least I feel sad and unloved. Well, that’s exaggerated but you get what I mean. I feel down. It’s sad that we reached to a point where we measure our popularity and the care of other people by the number of messages we receive that don’t really say much and the number of facebook friends we have that we don’t really know instead of the quality time we spent with friends talking, goofing around, joking and just having fun.

All that communication is known as the social network; is raising a generation of antisocial beings that have no clue how to really connect. Lately when I meet up with friends and I’m talking about something or the other my friend would pick up her/his cell phone numerous times to reply to a blackberry messenger chat, What’s App or text, or post something on facebook or tweet another useless line. What’s even weirder is if it’s not a cell phone in hand it’s iPod headphones in the ear. I am sure you had some sort of conversation while you or the other person had your headphones plugged in. How is that social? For all my friends reading this right now I confess that I am guilty of the same charges. To give you a visual, imagine you and your friend are sitting at your kitchen table having a chat. Your friend gets up 4 times and leaves the kitchen for 30 seconds and comes back in. After the 4th time I am sure you had enough and will not finish whatever you were saying even if your friend begged you to. It’s pretty much the same thing with a cell phone, your friend is typing something and in those 10 or 15 seconds he/she is not really there.

What’s more and which is sort of funny, I know some people very well. I know their favorite color, animal, food and even their sleeping habits and what they are scared of. I know what they do everyday and even their friends. But you know what! I never met them in my life. They don’t know that I exist. They invite you to their life, you see what they do everyday. They talk directly to you. After a while you get to know them really well. They become part of your life because you watch them everyday. They might even be a substitute to friends. I know YouTube is awesome and that it is a huge community but I also think that it encourages anti-social behavior.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful that this technology keeps us connected. I would not give up my blackberry, iPod, or laptop voluntarily but I miss the days when my friends and I had a long chat that lasted for hours with no distractions, where we were 100% there. I would love to go out with friends and just have fun instead of pausing to take 20 photos of us posing to take that one perfect picture to upload on facebook or posting 140 characters about us on twitter. I wish I could leave the house without my cell phone or iPod without feeling naked. I’d like to read a whole page in a book before checking my Blackberry because the red little light started blinking again.

The Reward

The reward we get from helping others is in knowing 

that we have been blessed with the opportunity to do so...

This reward doubles up in silence and multiplies when done from our hearts.

Loving kindness is our own way of thanking God for the gift of life.

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Falling Crazy In-Love

Falling in Love is one of the craziest ideas ever..

You give your heart away knowing it might get harmed..

You trust yet u get betrayed..

You beLieve w/ all your heart yet u get Lied to..

You give everything u have yet it's never enough..

You never get tired, do u?


Don't worry, we are all as stupid as you are. 
Because people are just people.

We fall in Love, we get hurt, we cry.
We do it all again...

because Life
w/o Love...


is definitely not Life at all..


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Facts of Life

1. No point using limited life to chase unlimited money.
2. No point earning so much money if you can't live to spend it.
3. Money is not yours until you spend it.
4. When you are young, you use your health to chase your wealth. When old, you use your wealth to get back your health. Trouble is, it's too late.
5. Man is happy not because of how much he has, but how little he needs.

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Deadly Poison

Love is as deadly as poison...

A dream u dream alone is only a dream;

A dream u dream together is reality...


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Four Years Have Passed

Four years have passed so fast. 

I remember how often I used to blog 

releasing all the negative energy and thoughts that I had …. 

I remember how writing used to set me free… 

I had the courage to write what I couldn’t say…. 

When I go back to my old posts, I really laugh! 

I even can’t recall what exactly used to trigger all the ramblings I had…. 

4 years passed, probably I’m more mature now… 

I discovered that deep inside I'm the most traditional female 

you could ever meet yet I have a "rational modern twist"…. 

Most importantly, I’m so very thankful to God 

who let me appreciate family values & relationships before it’s too late… 

This spot will always have a special place in my heart …. 

It’s the private zone documenting intimate moments with me…

Whole Night Ramblings

I've spent the whole night rambling and writing

Ok, I can understand you might have difficulty keeping up. But I am having great difficulties keeping up too. And it has nothing to do with anyone.

This is just a pretext… its actually words that have been waiting to be birthed at Sunrise. Maybe a poetry line, a piece of music, a work of art, the eyes of a stranger that bring on a sense of familiarity, a memory, a song, an embrace or a heartbeat...

A heartbeat and the heart breaks open and say "finally" And the heart breaks open and sighs...or sheds a few silent tears. Let your heart breathe - Open it. I have to keep the lid on most of the time, because am a survivor.

I am a survivor of many things I will not share with you. I can't afford to unlock the bolted door. I need to keep going...but occasionally... There is a popular saying that goes - you will never realize how much you love something/someone until you lose it.

This is very true. This is why I believe it is important not to take anyone or anything for granted. Especially, not those you love.

Are You Woman Enough?

Most of us women are being told that where not good enough. It's seems to be the overriding injunction, message that remains with them well into the end of their days...

Sometimes it is said out liberally, and sometimes insidiously. It is repeated for years by family members, school teacher, boyfriend, lover, and husband; faithfully passed on to the children...

Gracefully said, Woman you are not good enough. You are too - tall, short, fat, thin, blonde, brunette, loud, quiet, lazy, overactive, intellectual, not intellectual, political, apolitical, religious, not religious enough... You are too - sexual, frigid, social, asocial, extroverted, introverted, rigid, loose, tight, responsible, irresponsible, charitable, selfish, polite, rude, emotional, rational...

You are too much - you are not enough. Flip side of the same coin.

The end result is always the same. After all you are a girl, now you are woman. We tolerate you but really deep down we prefer you to be a man or at least asexual. Anything, but don't bother us with your otherness...

Then it comes as no surprise that "statistics" tell us that "mental illness" affects us more than men. We fall into debilitating depressions, suffer anxiety disorders, suffer from borderline personality disorders, are anorexic/bulimic, are addicted to shopping or relationships, develop psychosomatic illnesses, are more prone to accidents...compared to our "wonderful" men.

There are all these "mental" manifestations I spoke of earlier on and on which a whole psychiatric and pharmaceutical industry were built. Then there is also the whole fashion industry that caters for us with no sense of self.

Then add to that, the cosmetic industry. If I just buy the right lipstick or the right cream, maybe, just maybe...Or if my hair looks like this model promoting this shampoo, just maybe...

Then there is of course the last recourse, the plastic surgeon. Face lift, eyebrow lift, tummy tuck, nose job, liposuction - suck the flab, lift the boobs, augment them, plump those lips, laser, botox, silicones....Anything more?

Notice the words. Sucking, tucking, lifting, filling, plumping - what do these words remind you of`? And if you can't make the association or connection, think twice.

Doctor changes me and makes me more acceptable, more loveable, more desirable...

Lift me, suck my flab, fill me, plump me, tuck me...

Any better now?

And what does the plastic surgeon; psychiatrist and shopping mall have in common? They will lift her up, and tell her you are fine and will be fine. But do buy this latest dress, or lift this boob or take that anti-depressant or ... remove your uterus...

Revolutions have come and gone. You dress to kill as if walking naked, you took the pill and fucked your head senseless, you had the nose job, the boob job and the liposuction, you bought the right clothes, you also married and reproduced and became a good mother and wife or an executive single mom and yet...the question still occur. How come?

Some of you flirted with madness, drugs, alcohol, and bad men, seeking the ultimate lift me up in abuse and yet questioned... How come?

You have tried every single psychic, self help book, anti-depressant, tranquilizer, tarot reader, sheikh, priest, rabbi or monk, you prayed and pleaded, you burned candles, chanted, and burned incense and yet questioned again... How come?

No magic, no therapy, no surgery, no religious figure will ever help you unless YOU first recognize that "primary" question and CHANGE it.

I am urging to wage of revolution against the deliberating question, a ruthless revolution... I am urging to pluck it out from our cells and from our neurons...I am asking to behead it, burn it and banish it into a forever exile...

I am asking you to proclaim out loud, AM INTELLIGENT ENOUGH, PRETTY ENOUGH, LOVING ENOUGH, STRONG ENOUGH, SOFT ENOUGH, SEXY ENOUGH, RATIONAL ENOUGH...

I AM GOOD ENOUGH. I AM WOMAN ENOUGH...

Unjust Feelings

You know, I have this problem. I am too nice, sometimes I wish I was plain rude. Do you ever get this? You just wish to say what is on your mind, no matter how harsh. Some experiences, scenes and emotions that I have experienced had a big impact on me and I will probably always remember them mainly because how I reacted to them but honestly because how I didn’t react to them. I was in a number of situations where I saw people being rude or unjust to me or others, sometimes I reacted fittingly, sometimes I reacted poorly where I wish I had stood up more and the worst is when I didn’t react at all, which comes back hunting me for a long time after. Every time I witness or am in such a scene and then leave without giving a response either because I didn’t have one or because I supposedly am in control of myself this feeling builds up in me, spreads in my body, lingers under my skin and tingles. This annoying uncomfortable restless tingling remains me for the entire occurrence ever and ever again.

Is Out for a BOOZE

Who likes to BOOZE?

Vodka can be mixed with anything, including more vodka & me.

In Wine there is wisdom but Whiskey is the water of life.

Want's

As of now, this what i want....

"I want you,"
 

"I like having you in my life,"

"Can I just have a mate?"

My True Love

Finding true love is not a matter of finding the perfect mate, but more about being ready and willing to give true love. What is true love? It is not "falling in love." It is what we do in the days, weeks, months and years afterwards. It is all the things described in Corinthians: it is patient, kind, does not envy, is not proud, rude, self-seeking nor easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs, does not delight in evil but rejoices in truth; always protects, trusts, hopes and perseveres.

I'm Done Chasing You

I'm not going to stress over you anymore. 

It isn't worth it. 

I tried to work something out but you just ignored it. 

I'm not trying to say I don't want you, because I definitely do. 

All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you.

3 Steps to a Happy 2012

1. Don't stress yourself with USELESS PEOPLE who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life.
2. NEVER INVEST too much emotion at one thing because if you do, you will end up hurting yourself.
3. Learn to LIVE LIFE WITHOUT WORRIES because GOD will make a way for everything. Trust the Lord with all your heart.

Jan 2, 12 Ramblings

whew.... had 1 hours walk/jog at rizal st. - osmena st. - bonifacio st. & pioneer st. and fort... nice feeling... now having coffee sa gawas sa laundry, ihap ihap ug pedicab.. paminaw pabuto...

what thahhh.... some one saw me in Mercury Drug Store and ask me what i bought in there......
sabi ko: Boracay Rum... and he ask if masarap ba yan.. I told him yes sabi ng pharmacist.. recommended daw nya un... 

had dinner at the Street Foods at Trade Center in Tagum City w/ my kiddos now at home and tired... had a great day today... so busy and loving it... love my work love my friends and lots of love... hope this year will be a good one for me... I may not be lucky for my life partner but I have all the love from my Family and friends and that is more than enough for me. 

Woman of Strength

A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape …
but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape…

A strong woman isn’t afraid of anything …
but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear…

A strong woman won’t let anyone get the best of her …
but a woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone…

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future…
a woman of strength realizes life’s mistakes can also be God’s blessings and capitalizes on them…

A strong woman walks sure foetid …
but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls…

A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face …
but a woman of strength wears grace…

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey …
but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong…

a strong woman is one who gets her heart broken time and time again and still has the strength to gather the pieces to create a new life for herself. Remember that no matter what pain you’ve been through, tears will dry, broken hearts will heal, and somewhere out there the person who truly cares is waiting. you’re a woman and you are strong.