No matter how much I try.. no matter what I do with my
life. The missing piece has died. I really think so. The only person I loved
has really died. Not physically. But for me he no longer exists. I don’t know
why I am saying all this now. Maybe because I am sitting here wondering what to
do with my life. Wondering how long I will keep remembering and loving someone
that really is not there. Just my imagination, I don’t know. I guess I am just
sitting here sad and alone and keep wondering how long I will live like this. I
don’t think I want to change the way I am anymore. I think all the things I
hoped gone and vanished. I just can’t imagine my self being happy or really
happy anymore. I was at one time in my life. But it all died out. All just a
lie or something that probably was never there.
I don’t know. I am just rambling on and on about someone
that has died in my heart. No longer exists. I for and wished for and thought
about for hours and hours have all wish I can wake up from this nightmare that
I cannot get out of. I wish one day this will all stop.
